Playing With Shadows

Decided to depart from a few friends because of some differences. Less Drama in life reduces built up of confusion - Life is complicated as it is.

After gaining back my radar - i think the first thing was like " You b@$c%" & "Oh..you're so full of yourself that you couldn't see what's good in front of you" - and being amused at how oblivious that i didn't see all of this for the past few years. I was sharing with some friends that I couldn't imagine that I had given everyone the super 'benefit of the doubt' that everyone has good intentions & is good since they're christians. Man..i was dead wrong. But I do see now that there are many who are true friends, and that both non-christians & christians can both be great counsels and friends (though not all counsel maybe Godly & caution is needed in this department). I woke up from my assumption that my friends who are christians = good sisters & brothers.

In an ideal world...that would've been the case.

I think the most interesting thing to notice from awakening is probably the resisting of the temptation to step back to my old ways of playing mind games. It's so easy to manipulate on a high magnitude - but that wouldn't be honouring to God - it'll just be fighting sin with sin. That I won't fall for - even though the satisfaction of confusing people & manipulating inanimate and animating scenarios is..like moving chess pieces on a real life drama seting - very sweet. Like directing a movie! hhahhaaa!

In any case, party is about to start with Lee coming back to Sg. Time to load'em up :)

On another random note, I just love the hint scent of marigold & chamomile at night.

P.S. Guys, time to claim back what we left behind last year.