I seriously got to work on getting my essay done well =\
Exhausted after staying up for the past two nights in a row to get some work done. Im so glad that it is over..the next wave is about to start...again. Suppose this is what the life of a student is.

The weekend seems like a looming battle ahead that'll change me forever and mark a milestone in my life - whichever way it goes. I think it will be difficult to swallow. How i wish it didn't have to be this way and things would remain a dream...a lofty dream of my own to savour. Each night i find no rest, perhaps im worried of how things would turn out this weekend, perhaps it is just so many things happening over this weekend that i find that there's just too much for me to digest. I just can't shake anyway the foreboding whispers that comes every now and then. As i try to calm myself before the storm, i just get piled up with work, essays, responsibilities, plannings. As much as i want to enjoy my dearest mentor's wedding, i have to take several matters simultaneously which just saps me of whatever time that i desperately need to quieten myself for the "main event".

I can see myself telling myself the following lines :

"It's time to hang it up."
"I can't. If i don't, then no one else would..."
"If you go any further, you'll lose yourself and break."
"Then let me break while trying to make it all work."
"You know im gonna say "i told you so.." in the near future"
"heh..i know. I know you would. *smirk*"

I think im driving myself nuts just thinking of what's going down this weekend. Where did the break go to? =X

Anyway, currently tuning into Rob Thomas & his matchbox twenty.

I think their songs are starting to grow on me, on top of the edgy & catchy "disease" and "This is how my heart breaks", his other songs seem to intrigue me : usually exuding a interesting mix of happy melodies with sad lyrics. What a contradictory and amazing trademark of an artist! What truly is startling to me is that he is a german born in N.Y.

Alright, about time for me to pucker up and get my lazy butt off the computer to get productive - and get some sleep for the weekend ahead (how amusing, it used to be the inverse of this).